ALL MY GOOD INTENTIONS

There is nothing like the birth of your first-born child. Nothing prepares you for the overwhelming love you feel when you hold the one true thing you can call yours. Every little anecdote, every step, every heartache is a new adventure you take together. I was blessed with the perfect baby. He was the kind of baby who hardly cried, slept through the night and had the happiest disposition. The learning experience of being a first time mom was magical. He was my world.

As he grew older I felt that raising him was a big experiment. No amount of reading prepares you for the enormous task of raising a child. I struggled and still do today in making decisions that affect him now and the future. I find that I have to create a balance between keeping him on the right track and allowing him to enjoy life. I end up trusting my gut because my love for him always points me to the right direction.

I’ve been blessed with such a good kid. Javy is the kind of person who puts others over himself, appreciates everything given to him and tries his best not to abuse his blessings. He is the MOST obedient child.  He helps me take care of his siblings and is the first to notice when I’m feeling down. I can’t seem to put in words the magnitude of his kindness so I won’t even try. The bottom line is I am proud to be his mom. When I look at him I wonder….What did I do to deserve such a perfect child?

In the midst of raising our children, we have to consider the inevitable future. There will be a time when we have to let go of our kids and allow them to spread their wings and be their own person. When that time comes we have to be prepared because our children were not given to us so we can hold on to them. They were given to us because we need to guide them to become god fearing and law abiding people. At the end of the day, I only have one wish. I want him to be happy. As much as I want to keep him at home forever I have to accept that one day he will leave so he can start his own life. When he does I’ll be happy because as he walks away he will take with him ALL MY GOOD INTENTIONS.